First of all, I’d like to thank everyone for the support, love and hatred.
If you’ve been reading my blog for a while now, I’d like to thank you for coming back and advice you to bookmark my rss feed, because I’m going nasty and decided not to shut up and break some limits.
Actually, there are some things which I’ve said here that I’m not proud to say, personal posts with comments I should have disallowed, but I need to clear some points out:
This is my space, my domain and I pay for it, so I have the right to say what I want to here.
I need to get the negative emotions out of my chest, and you need to stomach it.
The thing is, what I really want my blog readers to know, is that… In person, I’m easy, outgoing, a party animal, a friend who listens and who likes to advice when he can, It doesn’t take me a long time to open up and be your new best friend, To me, my life seems to be sort of an open-book, but trust me some personal issues are extremely private, no one knows about them unless those I want to be informed about. But sometimes, I share some of them not so private things because:
You’ve shown interest in knowing me better.
You’re my sort-of virtual friend, eh?
My blog is an exception, I can’t determine who exactly reads my blog but I usually lie to myself and say, only the people who comment here are the only ones who are actually interested, even them spam bots.
The truth is that my family could be reading it and I’d have no idea. Like my 14 year old niece, she yelled at me the other day for not reviewing “Twilight” and “High School Musical 3″, also because I’m not interested in Zack Efron.
Now, I can’t say I have trust issues but I sort of used to trust people to the point of “naivete” and that always was a good reason to get back-stabbed the next morning they found someone else, not any better looking of course but you know… It’s the interest shown by people, or rather the lack thereof, that makes me clam up because it basically feeds my needs, I’m an attention-whore hello!
Still, It is easy to bare all in my blog because this is my space. My personal space, my freedom? like being naked in your room. Well, as long as you keep the shutter down… You get what I mean? In my blog, I do what I want and It’s only for me. I find pleasure and happiness in comments, but only because I allow them. Ultimately, I blog for myself first.
When I reveal my personal side, I do it for bonding purposes. I expect curiosity, concern, reaction, sympathy, empathy, advice, encouragement… maybe the whole nine yards. I don’t expect any problems to be solved, but I like knowing that the person I choose to confide to is thinking about me, with me…
I don’t mind it when the person asks about an update of an issue in my life. I’m not saying I expect strangers to ask me personal questions and I’ll answer right-away, I suppose you’d know if it’s an appropriate question to ask if you feel a connection with me.
That’s why I’m so open here in my blog. Not everybody who reads about my life shows interest, but the ones that do encourage me. They make me want to be better, happier. They show me a different perspective in a kind and supportive manner.
Let me share something with you, I don’t expect many to be interested but, I’d give it a shot:
I’m suffering from migraines, I was asked to stop or limit my usage/dose of alcohol and smoking, I like drinking and I won’t stop drinking for any religious purposes and I like hookah too, I don’t want to stop them and it is not easy to do that either, what do you suggest?
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you shouldn’t limit or even quit both drinking and smoking for religious reasons if you don’t beleive in them min elawwal. balash. But you’ve just said it: do it to solve your health problem.
tayeb, If you don’t want to take that as an advice, I have another one.. but you asked for it, mashi?
drink and smoke till you die. That will pretty much put an end to your margins.
secratea added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
9:14 am
It is not easy to quit something you’re used to.
I’m trying to have less quantities.
you want me dead secratea? shokran
Moey added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
9:22 am
Dear Moey,
Although I disagree with a lot of what you are saying, I can really identify with you in a very strange way. I am not even sure if I would be crossing my limits if I said I totally know what you are going through!!!…It took me years to reconcile my mind with my beliefs, and even today I am struggling on daily basis…struggling with a society that is sticking to outdated ideas about patriotism, gender issues, sexual orientation…etc. BUT what makes me different, I guess, is that I didn’t reject my beliefs all together and embraced the other side’s one. I simply filter everything and choose what is good for me. Drinking and smoking are bad for me and that is why I never ever do them, it is not just a matter or religion, and I believe that if you cooled down and tried to be rational about every choice in your life, you will actually find that a lot of aspects of religion are actually not that bad and make sense at the end of the day if we tried to be objective about them….. Any way I wish I can write you more but I have something to do right now and need to rush…wish you all the best.
Tarek added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
10:32 am
well. no one can blame you for confessing your secrets, and no one has the right to tell you what’s right or wrong.
I don’t think that I should be commenting all the time to be considered a follower, there are any issues that I don’t agree with you on, but that doesn’t mean that I should object unless I have a personal experience that I would share.
I think blogs should be a place to let go of your feelings and ideas, and if one doesn’t like what you’re saying, thay can simply not read your blog!
Ulysses added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
10:52 am
A good start is to drink less vodka, whiskey and rum, and during the week days drink some whine with the food or a cider while watching tv, something light.
this way when the weekend comes you don’t have this need for getting really drunk and a beer ot two would be more than fine.
A study shows that drinking a bottle every weekend for example is a lot more harmful than drinking the same quantity divided over the days of the week, this means dividing your drinking into smaller more balanced portions is less harmful.
when it comes to smoking water pipes, try to share one with a friend instead of ordering a whole one for yourself, choose flavors that you dislike, this way you will be forced to smoke less, order something to eat preferably something that takes quite a while to eat, in this way you will avoid mixing the tasty food with the smoke.
try to change your routine, do not always meet up with your friends at the same coffee shop or it will get harder to quite.
Nizar added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
11:07 am
I’ve suffered from migrains in the past as well and yes, I smoke and enjoy the occassional drink. However, the only thing that has helped me with my migrains is checking my caffine intake. Anyone who tells you it’s related to nicotine or alcohol consumption hasn’t a clue (unless they’re confusing migrains with hangovers).
smk added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
5:19 pm
“like being naked in your room. Well, as long as you keep the shutter down…”
This is not just like ur case, in ur example info is transmitted through vision which is blocked by the shutter… still without the shutter people can ignore and note look, while some would!
But why blog and let people who u do not know into the blog?
Genki added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
5:23 pm
Go less and less over time till you quit. It might not be easy, but you if you want you can make it
The Observer added these pithy words on
Mar 15 09 at
7:34 pm
first of all, hello…
You should be flattered by getting this amount of replies on your previous posts (specifically the religion one the LGBT subject(btw wats BT? Bar Tender? Or Black Table maybe?!)) coz eventually this means that ur being heard, and I think you know ur website stats better than I do.. My point is you are free to say whatever you believe, but being in this community and in an islamic bound country , you should expect this type of replies… For example, I’m not really comfortable seeing a gay guy walking in my neighborhood , why? Coz we and our country are not ready yet to deal with such scenarios, so if a 5 year old kid asks me who’s that person, I wouldn’t know what to answer… You see where am going here…
Anyhoo, regarding argeeleh , simply don’t go to argeeleh places, coz argeeleh is purely a social activity, that u can survive without only by changing places, for ex: yes starbucks, no luganos… unless you prepare it yourself at home, then ur in an advanced zone, I’m not sure I can really help then :p
And just one comment, what the is with “Water Pipe”… Ma32ool !!! You make it sound like a mawasirji’s best friend…
Tamara added these pithy words on
Mar 16 09 at
12:25 am
Tamara – the BT in LGBT is Bisexual and Transgender….
oddinnuendo added these pithy words on
Mar 16 09 at
5:22 am
Try something called binaural beats! Do some readings about it! and ask ur shrink if he would approve u for such a thing!
It is quit new to our arabic world, but please be careful! It can have profound effects on ur brain waves!
genki added these pithy words on
Mar 16 09 at
9:58 pm
It’s probably not what you say but the way you say it that ticks people off. Still, tolerance is always paramount when it comes to dealing with people with strongly opposing views.
In any case, regarding your health, you can take Nizar’s advice (I know nothing of alcohol to be honest) if it seems true (technically speaking it should be). I used to have hooka but resolved to quit, and I started by sharing it with someone, and then gradually ordering it later in the evening until I stopped it altogether
KJ added these pithy words on
Mar 17 09 at
9:11 am
ok moey , remember there is some people want you , Care about you, and wish you good, i think that’s good reason to go to alchohol addict clinic and get some help.
moey i really feel bad becouse of you
MAJED added these pithy words on
Mar 17 09 at
5:46 pm
I only want to say that not alot of ppl can do express themselves or understand what they feel. It is enough for me that you can. Bless you. there will be time when you seethings differently, we all came across this stage on a way or another but lets meet when you are done with all these feelings
Name added these pithy words on
Mar 18 09 at
10:25 pm
Moey i hate you, just because you reminds me of myself which i hate for the moment, exept i dont bitch about it, well i do with my therapist
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any way, when i read your blog its kinda a relief for me, seeing someone able to speak his mind, trying to balance between his honesty and the shock that people would get if he went too far with his writings.
I’ve always wanted to do so but unfortunately my tentative writings wont accede my creative writings class and i don’t even bother myself putting it online with the rest of my “creativity”.
so what im telling you now is to keep on doing what you do, its stressful but it least you unleash some of your thoughts out of your mind, so what being vulnerable is not good but it can help in terms of being yourself, so god speed in what you do and keep on drinking/smoking ,so
GO NUTS YOU ARE YOUNG ONLY ONCE
but try not to go to far keep on 2 baileys/week unless its St.Patty Day
Ali added these pithy words on
Mar 20 09 at
7:01 pm
