This year has been the most dramatic one in my life, I’ve lost and gained friends.
I see life from a different aspect now, I loved and wasn’t loved, I didn’t love and was loved… I could write a hell of a series of 150 episodes of my misery and call it “Moey” (making fun of Noor, ha-ha-ha)!
I realized it is not easy to keep in touch with people when the commons that connects us has broken. Take my kinky friends at university. Most of them are friends simply because we are classmates or we were forced to be in one study group. We mostly do not have anything in common besides the major we study. It is kind of sad because I got to know them over 3 years and as a class, we were such amazing people… I had the best times mocking teachers, sometimes learning and sneaking out to have shisha at the closest coffee shop. Thinking about my future and losing them, is just sad.
Everyone is going back to a different country, we unite unlike the UN, being Jordanian, Lebanese, Palestinian, Syrian, Kuwaiti, Zimbabwean (inside joke) and even Chinese in one house laughing our asses off on a silly scary movie, enjoying cool pizza and some drinks… priceless! sleeping over is even funnier, you get to know who sneezes, who farts and who sleeps with one eye open.
You later realize that them friends, became your family. because you were far from yours and you got used to seeing your friends daily, over coffee, exams, a movie, gathering or even partying out like there’s no tomorrow. Everyone of us has a different character, from the weirdo to the metro to the dancer… all different! until we start sharing something in common, loving life more?
Also, there’s that person I used to be involved with. I seem to care about very much but it hurts to be friends with. Other than the fact that I had feelings, I also feel that person doesn’t quite care about me. It is understandable though because I heard some personal problems were going on and that makes an emotionally difficult time. I understand that, but the part of me that still likes doesn’t. All that said, I still miss that person’s friendship. We used to have really weird conversations online.
End of story, Friendships are fragile. One disagreement can be like a pair of scissors can cut them.
I’m not enjoying Ramadan, this is 3rd day I had to stop fasting, my nose bleeds for no reason, I suffer from a flu and I have muscle stiffness. I’m on 3 different types of pills and a muscle relaxing spray. I also have daily work to get rid of and I’m a human again. Sorry people, I failed you. Maybe next Ramadan?
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Salamtak ya Moey God already gave us a permission to not fast if we are physically unable so you did not fail anyone and hope you feel better soon.. that being said.
I know what you mean about collage friends I had the same feeling when I graduated and I was not even in another country in spite being sad its inevitable.. Have happy thoughts Moey and be well
Sarah added these pithy words on
Sep 03 08 at
10:57 am
your a good writer.. 8|
thats really good man.. sorry for what you lost.. and get well soon
Abed Alrazzak added these pithy words on
Sep 03 08 at
12:22 pm
It’s true co-workers or classmates,are just there during the atomsphere both share,it’s hard to be real friends with.
Bloody nose and pills,if u are sick u shouldn’t be fasting…..plus u didn’t fail nobody!
Bobby added these pithy words on
Sep 03 08 at
2:20 pm
Dude.. it is only the 3rd day. You will get better inshallah in a few days and you can fast the rest. This doesn’t mean khalas.. no more.. and you will be like this for days and days.
Rebellious Arab Girl added these pithy words on
Sep 03 08 at
4:11 pm
You didn’t fail anyone man… it’s the third day, 26 more to come.
Frienships are really fragile and what you said is true. Sad part is that everyone knows that but decide to let the scissors cut anyway
KJ added these pithy words on
Sep 04 08 at
10:36 am
This year has been kinda weird for a lot of people including myself. Lets hope 2009 is better:)
MiYaFuSHi added these pithy words on
Sep 06 08 at
11:04 am
I know what you mean man. Getting attached to a group of people and having to let go is a bitch. It’ll take time…
Stafa added these pithy words on
Sep 06 08 at
2:40 pm
