Drama loves me, and you too.
And that’s the truth. I’m not ashamed of the way I feel right now, because I’m what I want to be and I have people who care about me. But I’m very unhappy despite that.
The truth is that I’m such a whore, I just can’t let go of people who made it, inside my heart! my relations became bad memories. I’m still haunted by memories, a lot of drama. I never let on how awful I truly felt at those times…
I wanted to blog about my situation then, but I already have too much drama on. I know that my readers do not enjoy sad posts, so this is the truth, the truth is that I’m not okay. I thought I would be once I’m in a relation.
Apparently I’m not. I’m from those who give you an impression, a false one by looking good on the outside while I’m miserable inside, of course, I try and make myself better. I laugh, crack jokes up, do some shopping, smoke hookah, hang out with friends, maybe have a new haircut… thinking any of that would make me feel better. I feel better later on, for a short period.
I’m still not happy the way I was before. I lost many things. I lost some weight, I lost some friends, I gained some… I’m very depressed deep down inside, I just don’t show it.
I never show my inner feelings, ever!
I’m fake. I’m damaged. I’m a bad seed. I just happen to suffer from that and enjoy it at the same time, evil feels good, I might have some apples, however your lover’s apples taste better.
I know it is my fault, I’m responsible for my own happiness, but I think I need help finding it back.
I need a DQ and I’m proud.
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You aren’t “fake”, you’re at a point of self discovery.
And you know what…show your true emotions, the ones you’ve been burying deep within the core; you’d be surprised how much better you’ll feel once you unearth your feelings.
I let it out, and I’m not happy at all. it didn’t make me feel any better.
“I never show my inner feelings, ever!”
u just did :),its okay to feel that from time to time, that what makes us human:)
this is some of what I have inside
Bring it out, all of it, then clean its place. Put some light, some colors, some ambition, some love, and some hope.
Get it out, and add new things. Feel new, and feel fresh. Let go of your old baggage. You don’t have to lift it on your shoulders. Put it down and move on. Carry a flower instead. It would draw positive energy around you and a smile on your face
Build your own happiness. Don’t look to front or to back , don’t look up or down. Just close everything and feel good now. At this very moment. Keep this moment with you as you go on. Whenever something bad violates your serenity, drop it immediatly. It won’t come back if you erase it from you memory.
Be good man..
If you call that fake I dunno what fake is! You’re very human and you should enjoy being human as such!
Inshalla things start looking up soon, and in the mean time, let it out through your art
Thanks KJ
Will i feel the same way Moey…
If you ever got an answer for it PLEASE share it with me….
thanks
Allow me to say you’re not the only one!
Everybody have thier situations,thier obsessions,thier dirty laundry.We are all becoming more mature,this is growing up.
“We take sour sips from life lush lips and we shake shake shake the hips in relationships”
This is what we call it : inside deep world
and u mentioned
)I’m very depressed deep down inside, I just don’t show it.)
As Everyone said Moey, Everybody have thier situations, and you not being fake! we are humans we have feelings and we are in a period of growing up, i hope i helped :S
I feel you!
but time will mend and things will change..
You’ll look back and think it was all worth it, the feelings you had, all the memories.. all of it will make you someone better, regardless of how bad or good they are.
Don’t give in to your low points.