It is really weird when you pass by a phase where you don’t know the person in front of you anymore. A close person is in the ICU at the moment, this person made me hate him the past few years, his acts, what he became.
I just realized that he also made me become something else, I didn’t want to be, but he made me. his lungs are filled with water now probably because of a heart failure, his kidneys are cleansed (excuse me if the term is wrong, I never liked biology), and he is under an oxygen mask besides his blood infection.
I used to like this person for around 20 years, I don’t anymore… I kind of don’t know if I do or don’t. The most annoying thing is that I showed him that I hate him a month back or so and I didn’t really care.
The bad thing is that he might die thinking I hate him and feel bad about it and since he is not aware of anything around him now, I don’t a phone call would affect.
A call to everyone reading this: Don’t ever become a heartless bitch like myself, don’t ever reach a level where hatred builds in your heart, you won’t realize how much a person means to you until you begin to lose them. or lose them.
I’m not crying all over myself now, I’m stuck in the weirdest phase ever… I’m listening to depressing music all day. I didn’t attend classes, I didn’t sleep, I didn’t go to work, I didn’t do my laundry, I didn’t even eat and Jack Daniel’s isn’t helping.
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Moey, dont be so hard on yourself. Why dont you pay him a visit? If he’s unconscious leave him a note for someone to read something short & simple and shows your tender thoughts.
But you’re right… life’s too short to build upon animosity. Feel better soon.
Batoul added these pithy words on
Mar 09 08 at
8:33 pm
lsn … i’ll tell you one thing … such ppl exist and its ok if you felt like u hate him for some time … now do the call even if he is not aware of it … sometimes there is a bigger power than our abilities … he’ll feel it ..
someone added these pithy words on
Mar 09 08 at
10:21 pm
I noticed that people usually over react to such incidents. I am not saying not to feel bad because you gave this person a hard time while ago, but this perosn could have deserved it – w momken la2.
y3ni when people go thru such phases they become more senstive so my advice is to stop the depression and be urself regardless of anything.
Ayah added these pithy words on
Mar 09 08 at
10:27 pm
One way or another, we all have been there. I’m sorry to hear that Moey, but one way or another, the person you’re talking about, he knows that you don’t hate him. I’m sure of that. Best wishes for him, Inshallah he’ll get better soon.
Anonymous added these pithy words on
Mar 09 08 at
10:41 pm
bambam being nice warning …. and its rare.
well either way it doesn’t matter at this point what happened in the past or whether you can fix it in time or not. what matters is how you feel about it now, that you shouldn’t have taken it to that extent and that you should’ve been more patient with that person. Just remember that lesson, and just by acknowledging that i think that this person has already realized things to be as such, and won’t be thinking about things the way that you think he is. For that will never happen, no matter how much love or hate is in a relationship, when someone means enough to us to fear his loss that persons best interest is always in our hearts so just try to make things a bit better and less reactive
end of bambams niceness
bambam added these pithy words on
Mar 10 08 at
11:33 am
I hear out there bro – thats life, it has it high and low
wish you could move on, he/her isn’t worth the pain
Sabeur added these pithy words on
Mar 10 08 at
4:58 pm
“The bad thing is that he might die thinking I hate him and feel bad about it”
Trust me it wouldn’t hurt him as much as it would hurt you later on , he might have been an asshole but try to forgive, for YOU
hang in there buddy , and give me a call if u felt like talking
mola added these pithy words on
Mar 13 08 at
12:55 pm
